Prayer Request 05: The Stressor

It's just 75 days before my wedding.

And before me are still a number of wedding details Dong and I need to take care of. I'm trying to prioritize those things that need prioritizing 2.5 months before the big day; hopefully, Dong and I are able to prioritize correctly.

It's just 75 days before my wedding, and I'm feeling (I'm guessing) what brides before me have called the wedding jitters - the almost-nauseous feeling in the tummy when I'm reminded that I'm no longer 17 and in college, but am, in fact, an adult who's getting married, changing my surname, changing zipcode, changing my job of four years... And who's sharing a bed with a guy for the rest of my life. And having babies.

It's just 75 days before the wedding, but I can't focus all my attention on it just yet because it's Science Month season then Halloween at Mad Science, there are to-do's at CCC before my directors leave for the US, there are a couple of books I'm editing and helping coordinate the printing of (and they need to be released ASAP), and Christmas season's coming up for Truffle Tree.

But it's not the overwhelming amount of tasks that get to me; it's people who try to impose what they want for my wedding without any thought about what I, the bride, really want. And people who don't offer their opinion when they think my idea isn't a good idea, but who freely criticize when they think I don't hear them, which convinces me that, no, they're not interested in helping me out with my wedding, (unlike Ilia who talked me out of skipping the pre-nup because she wanted Dong and I to have that once-in-a-lifetime experience - we're not models after all; or Pam, who thought it's better to wear the "something blue" in my head than in my feet; or Hannah, who said that the skirt of the wedding dress I wanted may be a bad idea because it could add unwanted volume to my already-wide hips...), just in criticizing what I do. And they're supposed to be the ones closest to me, the ones you'd think would be most concerned about me having my "dream wedding".

I'm not used to writing posts this emotional and making them this public. But this is our prayer bulletin after all, so let me ask you to please pray that I'd have enough strength to just concentrate on enjoying the wedding preps and to ignore non-helpful things people say, no matter how hurtful. Thank you.

P.S. If you're reading this, and you're thinking whether I'm referring to you because you wanted to wear nude shoes instead of gray, or you wanted to wear a floor-length dress instead of tea-length, let me assure you it's not you. :)

And, again, I don't want a "dream wedding". I don't think I ever had a dream wedding. Just a dream guy/groom. Who could've been Isaac Hanson. Or Mike Shinoda. But I chose better. Actually, I chose the best. :)